Creative Control

Miscellaneous Mental Musings of an Emerging Artist

Two four six oh one.


Today I feel as though I’m playing a cat-and-mouse game with the tasks I have yet to accomplish, the sort in which predator and prey are fluid status.

I prioritize with my nerves on edge, fencing with my responsibilities instead of trying to engage them diplomatically, imagining in them a cruelty and a masochistic desire to be failed.

A detail forgotten until almost too late, an email still in need of response, a deadline approaching much faster than I had expected.

Guard, parry, thrust.

Duck into the doorway and slip into the shadow, get a better reading of the environment from higher ground.

Lie in ambush with my back to the wall.

I am in dogged pursuit of myself.

I am trying to stay one step ahead of my worst moments.

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This entry was posted on January 28, 2009 by in Mental Health, Work, Writing.
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