My son won’t know why
I’ve been holding him
as much as
I’ve been holding him.
That he notices,
I doubt.
That he will remember,
I doubt.
I’ve been holding him
as much as
I’ve been holding him
to make how much I hold him
the standard
for how much I hold him.
So he notices when
I do not hold him
as much as
I would hold him.
So he remembers that
I held him
as much as
I held him.
So he never doubts
I will hold him
as much as
I do hold him.